Saturday, January 31, 2009

Stronger Woman In Me

The song in my last post is about acceptance and forgetting it all. Now, this is the song for me and to all my marekois all over the world. Ito na dapat ang kanta natin talga!!! Thanks to Doths for giving this song to me! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah


Stronger Woman
Jewel

I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now, he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm worn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just when he's hungry and frisky
or needs something cleaned
And you know what I mean

But not tonight
'Cause come the morning light, oh
I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me

I'm gonna to be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no,
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz,
I get up
Head to my drawer
I wish there was more
I could say
Another fairytale fades to gray
I've lived on hope like a child
Walking that mile
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well from now on, I'm gonna be
The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me, packing up my bags
And this is me, headed for the door
And this is me, the best you ever had
I'm gonna to love myself
More than anyone else
Believe in me even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm going to be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, no, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman
Stronger woman
There's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me,
Stronger woman in me...

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Forget About Me

Though All The Love In The World is still the theme song, this is my song for now... Sometimes I wish I could just forget some things in my life... Selective Amnesia, where art thou...

Forget About Me
Little Bit


Hmm
Whoaaa Oohhh
Yeahh

You Said It Wasn't
Gonna Be Like It Was Before
Then It Happened Again
Pushing Me Back Out The Door
Thought It Would Be For Real This Time
Love Me Forget About The Signs
So Now What Do I Do
Now, That I Know That We're Through

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You

It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me


Too Late, Sorry
I Didn't Even Have The Chance
You Said You Were Happy
Baby, I Don't Understand
Gave You Everything You Asked For
And Was Ready To Give You A Lot More
I Would've Given The World
Right In The Palm Of Your Hand

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me..


Boy, My Heart Was True
And That You Can't Deny
Don't Be A Fool
And Walk Away From a good life
It's Up To You
Cause Heaven Knows I've Tried
Tell Me You're Still In Love
Yeahhhh Ohh

Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Forget About Me...

Sunday, January 18, 2009

A Diamond can only be scratched by another Diamond

Nothing to do on this lazy Sunday, my cousin Ate Liza and I were talking about our non-existent love lives. We were asking each other ba't nga naman ganon ang takbo ng buhay namin sa love aspect.

Sinabi ko naman sa kanya ako kasi parang mas ginagamit ko ang utak ko kesa sa puso ko. Sagot naman nya, ang puso mo kasi baka Bato na.

Sabi ko naman sa kanya eh yang sayo Bakal na. Sabi nya, ang bakal natutunaw, ang sagot ko naman yung bato nabibiyak din naman.

Tapos sinabi ko sa kanya, di pala bato sa akin -- Diamond ang puso ko. It can only be scratched by another diamond also.

So I'm waiting for that other diamond to come and scratch this precious heart of mine...

Shet!!! Corny...

Ayun, nagtawanan na lang kami. Kumain na lang para pampalubag-loob.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Having pizza, roasted hotdogs and marshmallows with couzins on a very cool evening

My cousins and I had another case of our food trippings.

All afternoon we were just chatting in our living room about our family and other stuff when we had the urge to eat, eat a lot.

First suggestion was to have pizza, but from S&R. I was willing to drive but I'm not gonna pay for it though. Hehehe So that was scratched. Then came suggestions for Dominos, Yellow Cab or Brooklyn deliveries so we can all share the bill. We ended up with Pizza Hut. Two pizzas for the prize of one (thanks to the Palm card).

Next, my sister wanted to have pasta, she wanted Ate Perlie to make spaghetti in an instant. Problem was, we still have to buy ingredients. But we were so lazy to go to the grocery so that was scratched also.

So we just have to make do with what we have in the house.

In the fridge, we saw that there were macaroni salad, cakes, marshmallows and some hotdogs and a few leftovers from my Mama's birhtday. So that was it! Leftover party in our garden!

We decided to roast the hotdogs and marshmallows and order pizza.

This was planned during merienda time but we ended up having it for dinner. We bought more hotdogs and marshmallows and began roasting them. My sister has this special sauce for the hotdog that is just delish! It makes the hotdog taste yum-Oh!

We all ended up chatting until midnight in the garden. It was still cold but we didn't mind 'coz we were wearing our jackets. Hehehe Plus my crazy cousins invited someone over as a surprise for me. But I knew what they were planning all along. They could never ever surprise me. I know what they were up to and they could never outsmart my crazy thinking also.

I dunno if their plan worked on me though, but the thought of it was so sweet. All I can say is.. "There is a time for everything and everything will fall into place."

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Bad memory lapse

Oh my God! I just forgot my Mama's Birthday. Huhuhu Gosh this is not good. Hayz...

When I was about to go to work my Mama was on the phone talking so I just went out of the house as usual, bangag and hoping I won't be late for work.

Then when I came to the office, I suddenly remembered it and said to myself that I'd be going home early 'coz it's her birthday nga pala.

But deadlines got in the way and I forgot it again.

If my sister hadn't texted me to home early and buy something for Mama I would have forgotten it again.

Hayz... got home a little late though. I didn't get to buy what was requested but I was there. Gosh, kelangan bumawi talaga ng todo-todo...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Promise to be sober... Nada!

After a long day at work. Bryan invited, no, insisted to have a drink or two with me. Bwahahahahahaha ;-)

Since I got home early with not much to do, I said yeah why not. Catch up on what we did on the weekend.

We had a pitcher of this drink called Surferboy. Wow! It has kick to it after finishing a pitcher of it!

We'll bring Jhie and Nikks here next time! Cheap drink, good barbecue. Greate combo!

A little tipsy on a Beautiful Monday night! The week is looking good already!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

There is a time for everything

Spent the whole day with my family. It was different. I didn't end up drunk. Not that many jokes flying around. But it was fulfilling.

We had lunch at Crustasia, Rockwell Powerplant. Papa wanted to just eat at Superbowl but I told them that we need to try out new restaurants just to experience their food. Glad they agreed to it. Must-tries at Crustasia: Catfish and Green Mango Salad, Thai Shrimp Pancake and Thai Pandan Chicken. They have hella big crabs. ;-)

Isabel got cranky if she didn't get to eat also. So we all took turns entertaining her and feeding her her own lunch (squash and cerelac). No yaya needed, it was just us.

After a hefty lunch, careof my brother, as it was in celebration of my Mother's 59th Birthday and Isabel is now 9 months old, we went shopping. It was still the year-end sale so there were a lot of big discounts everywhere!

We went home to Kuya's house to drop off Isabel because we're planning to watch a movie later in the evening.

Watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" with my Kuya, Shing (Kuya's wifey) and Ging. It's been a long time since I've watched a movie with my brother, as I remember it was E.T. along with my older cousins then.

The movie was curious. I salute the writer of this movie, he has a very imaginative mind in writing a story about a man that is growing backwards. Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett are amazing actors. The effects on this movie is to be commended. Aging the faces of these actors was amazing.

I got emotional at the latter part of the movie, though I dunno if it was mixed emotions on the story of the movie or spending the evening with them.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

All The Love In The World

Jhie's right. This song says it all.

Went out with a friend today, due to my cousin's insistent command. It was nice sharing stories but that's all there is to it. I dunno if it's gonna move on further. He's not my type of guy. I need adventure in my life, someone who knows want he wants and will lead the way. Someone who can command over me and not just do whatever I like kind of guy.

I'm looking for someone who will give me a fun adventure. That we both will enjoy doing. Hayz.. ang hirap naman.

Friday, January 09, 2009

In celebration of the first work week of 2009

We, Bryan, Jhie and I, enjoyed a few rounds of Daiquiri and Zombie drinks at the Sidebar cafe at Ortigas.

They offer 3 rounds of each drink at only P150.00 San ka pa?! Yun nga lang, since it's a bar, it was a little loud for me. I really am getting old, loud places irritates me a little now. I just want a place where I can enjoy drinks like these and still talk and joke around with my friends without shouting at each other.

Left the plate more tipsy than my usual since I'm not driving anyway. Aaaahhhh it's fun not being the designated driver!

Drop Jhie at her fabulous condo and enjoyed cold pizza, chips and salsa at her patio, watching the city view. Wanted to continue drinking some more but I had to go home 'coz I had to drop my cousin at the airport. Teehee

Next time, Jhie, Bryan and I will learn how to make Zombie or any drinks at Jhie's condo's na lang. Bring a blender and drinks. It's a lot cheaper and we learn a new skill.

Anywayz, after coming home, I ended up sleeping 'coz of my tipsydoo and puyatdoo. So my sister had to bring our cousin to the airport. Hehehe Thanks sis for covering my lovely tipsy cute ass. ;-)

Sunday, January 04, 2009

40 Year Old Wedding

Instead of being in Tagaytay with friends, which got cancelled 'coz my friends had gotten sick, my Mama let us all (me, my sister and my cousins) attend a wedding that she was a Ninang of.

A 2nd cousin of mine just got married. He got married with his Highschool batchmate. They are both 40 years old and they were happy at the wedding.

I will never forget the speech of the bride, she said that when they were picking their list of Ninongs and Ninangs, the bride, Bing, wanted this certain person to be a Ninong. But Kuya Lito (our cousin), said to her, No, he cannot be our Ninong because he doesn't have the values that we have.

Whoa! Now that's what I call a very very short list of people. I was proud that my Mama got to be a Ninang at their wedding. It's not because they would give a very extravagant material gift for the couple, but a gift of what being a Ninang really is. In these times, we tend to forget the real meaning or responsibility of being a Ninong or Ninang at weddings or even at baptisms.

I'm glad I attended this wedding, it gave me hope that even at that age, Mr. Right will still come and there are still people who value good values.

Though one incident badly reminded me of my beautiful age, a cousin of mine was introducing his daughter to us and this lady was already 14 years old! My God! She was making "mano" to all of us at the table. Hayz...

Thursday, January 01, 2009

2009 Affirmation

2008 has been full of bad habits and new discoveries about me. Lots of lessons learned and knowing more about myself.

This 2009, this is my affirmation for the whole year:

I Resolve

To FACE My Demons

LAUGH At Danger

CHALLENGE Fate

Dream BIG

LIVE Bigger

and LOVE Myself More


This 2009 feels exciting, like something great is about to happen to me. The newspapers are right, I've never been so hopeful for the coming year.

2009 looks very very promising as far as my life is going to be concerned...