Saturday, June 18, 2005

Disturbed these days

First of all, I'm sorry to the people that I've pushed away from my life, well, except for one I guess. I dunno why I do that. I guess it just makes it easier for me to let go that way. I know it's not right but I'm just facing the facts that people in my life will come and go and I dunno whether they want to keep me or not. I guess if I push people away from me, it'll be easier for them to hate and forget me. I don't want that result but I just really don't know why I think it that way. Thus the term, disturbed these days...

Friday, June 17, 2005

Down... Down... Down...

Three BIG losses in a few months time... I cannot let them see that it affects me. But if they only knew I'm crying inside. I'm beginning to break. I dunno if I can handle this. I dunno if I can even survive this. It only confirmed my fears that I cannot handle BIG changes. I dunno what I'm gonna do next. God help me...