2nd time around
Watched Star Wars for the second time last night with Doths and Jonki. It was funny watching it again, I was observing the crowd and the other parts of the movie that I didn't notice the first time I watched it.
It was also a little annoying 'coz beside me were teenagers that kept on giving their own opinions as loudly as they can while the movie was playing . Buti na lang talga napanuod ko na kundi mapapalabas ko sila sa sinehan. hehehehe
Doths pointed out a line uttered by Master Yoda that's meant for me daw.. Hehehe here it is:
"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."Hmmm... To be a Jedi or be a Sith...
With good people around me like Doths.. A Jedi I will be.
2 to go
We had our 8th Badminton session last night. It was very very interesting for all of us. We learned how to properly rotate around the court and improve our footwork more. We also learned to hit crosscourt. Mommy Weng, Joey "the hubby" and I were having a hard time on this exercise because we're not flexible enough. hihihi We have strength but we're not flexible. hihihi Doths on the other hand did a fine job in our crosscourt exercise because she has the flexiblity but not enough strength. Which is the perfect crosscourt motion. We have three more sessions to go in the Beginners level of our Badminton training. I wonder if we'll continue this to the next level. Hmmm....
Oh by the way, Mommy Weng chanced upon a ladies tournament at Yonex this coming September. We're planning to join this one and compete! So excited!!!! We finally get to be leveled! I wonder what our level would be... hhmmmm.... hehehehe We're gonna prepare for this tournament. Even our trainer, Jonathan, said he'll teach us the proper positions and strategies when playing doubles in a tournament. So excited!!!
It is time
I've been contemplating for days whether I would post this thought of mine, because it would mean I have to do it now. I've written it in black and white that this is what I want to do. You see, for days I've been thinking long and hard what's best for me and for others. But after too much and I mean TOO MUCH thought on this, it's what's best for me is the best thing to do. So here goes, no more looking back.
I wish that they would just get out of my sight. It makes me sick to my stomach when I see them. That's why I keep on saying, lucky are the people that do not get to see them everyday. I wish I was one of those people too that don't get to see them everyday. I wish they would go away. Although that would leave a void in my heart, I think that them going away would be better for my health. Sana hindi naman sila mga bato to realize this... But in reality, that situation would never ever happen so it's better that I'll be the one that would move away.
There are just some things that you don't like to see or you don't like to happen at all. But whatever we do, it's inevitable. Why is it that I always get to see things that I don't need to see!!! It's painful and I don't know why!!! I mean c'mon diba?! It's not my life getting wasted!!! I care but I'm also a nobody! So what am I holding on to ba? "That things will be back to normal and go back to where it was before? I know that will never happen again... but I still hope and pray it will..." I think this is why.. this tiny idea in my mind is so big in my heart that it breaks me. I have to remove that thought in my mind and in my heart. I have to. My work and health is getting affected and THAT is not very good. So I really have to.
I read in a good friend's post that it's in the way you handle or how you take things that will get you results. I guess the question now is, HOW can I handle this? Because I really have no clue at all. Follow your heart... Follow your brain... I think none of that will work because the situation and people are things I can't handle and I don't want to handle. Only they can handle it. So I just pray that you realize the intentions first, you know that the person has no one and going to you is the only solution. I also pray that please be finally sure of what you're feeling and doing, don't give false hopes. You're just fooling yourself.
I wish I could not think about it, to not think of the wasted friendship, to no get affected anymore, to live my life and accept the loss. This already happened before, but another good friend said there was still something missing. I guess that was the key, there will be losses in life but you just have to accept that to live through another day. This is the key...
I wish... I hope... I pray... that it's the right one.This is my last post on this. More posts on Badminton and other important stuff in my life =D. Yahoo!!!
You know what?!
Some people really do not learn the lesson. Or they choose not to learn it. Your WORD is your HONOR. If you don't DO what you SAY, where is your HONOR then?
Watching a movie DOES make a difference
Was having another one of those not so good days yesterday... Didn't want to work... Didn't want to go home either... Didn't want to interact... I didn't know what to do... Good thing Donish made an invite to watch Star Wars... Although it was at WalterMart, it didn't matter to me I just wanted to do something yesterday... I was so glad I did... I was glad I asked Don... I was glad that Don and Arnel (a friend of his) was appreciative enough to let me join them... THANKS GUYS!!! I was so glad I went, it really made a difference... I was so glad that I watched Star Wars on it's first day... One of the Geeks din pala ako... heehee hhmmm... Nahhhhhh I guess I just like watching good Sci-Fi flicks...
It was a pretty good movie compared to the previous prequels... Next time I watch Star Wars again... I'll notice the CGIs and the Sound more... heehee and I'll look for George Lucas in the movie, I didn't notice him last night...
May the Force be with you... Watch it!
Think Positive! But how?
Ever been hopeful that things will work out and be better? But suddenly, you found out it's not and it may never work out or be better ever again... disappointing isn't it?
Ever been excited and looking forward on what you will be doing the next day? But suddenly, you found out it was not going to happen after all... disappointing isn't it?
Ever had the feeling that you've won a gazillion dollars? But suddenly, you found out it's not for you... disappointing isn't it?
Ever been promised that things will be ok? But suddenly, you found out it's not ok and it's a waste of your time... disappointing isn't it?
Ever been promised that from now on things will be different? But suddenly, you found out it's still the same old f*****g thing... disappointing isn't it?
Ever been in a situation that you don't want to be disappointed again?
Never...
What's in my Name?
My good friend Doths asked me to visit a site that interprets your given name. Curious as I am, I tried it with my whole name and my second name only and this is what it told me for each name:
Ma. Christabel
Idealistic, sensitive and emotional you appreciate beauty and need to have a harmonious environment. You are a dependable and conscientious worker and attract material rewards without too much effort. However your altruistic nature is one of giving and service to others with a desire to make the world a better place and you work towards this end. Your affectionate, sincere and understanding manner means that you are much loved.
Christabel
Beautiful Christian : Latin / French
Gentle, affectionate and tolerant you are nonetheless determined and ambitious with the ability to lead. Sympathetic and understanding you are a humanitarian who wishes to improve the lives of others less fortunate. You have a keen intellect, strong intuition and creative ideas which are always put to practical purpose. You are loved by others for your inspiring optimism and for being a genuine friend.
Hmmm... Nice to know... hehehe
Here's the site: http://www.bostonuk.com/names/default.asp
Missed Badminton today... :-(
I didn't get to play Badminton today... Big Bummer! It's because I have this nasty sore throat and heavy feeling in my arms and legs. I think I'm gonna have the flu. I think I got this either from my Mama or from Doths!!!! They just recovered from the sniffles too. I don't want to have this!!!! huhuhuhu It's an irritating feeling to have the sniffles all day combined with a big headache.
Day-by-Day
Do you remember the Surf commercial wherein the Mother-in-law keeps on singing the title of this entry? Day-by-Dayyyyyyy... Day-by-Dayyyyy!!!! Day by Day. We have to take things Day-by-Day. Especially when your starting over again, because now you're more cautious. We do not want to get hurt again. It's hard to go back to your normal routine because "Change" is there. It happens or happened whether we like it or not. I encountered this quote while browsing through the internet and it struck me and made me think things through.
“We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.”
When I read this quote it made me smile because that's all we could really ever do.. "continue to love a changed person". I guess it's just different seeing the transition of the change in a person on a first hand basis than just suddenly seeing the person changed. It's like seeing a new haircut of a person you know. If you were there during the process of cutting the hair of that person, then a lot of ideas, suggestions and comments would come and when the haircut is done it may either be good or bad. Well, the opinion that would only matter on the outcome of the haircut is up to the person who had the haircut, he/she may like it or not. But of course you are entitled to your opinion also, you may also like it or not. But the truth is the haircut is done. If it's bad then improve on it more. If it's good then it's worth it and you have a new look. =D
Unlike if you suddenly saw the person you know have his/her hair cut. You'll just react to it and say one thing: "Nice haircut! I like it! San ka nagpagupit?" OR "Hellleeerrr!!!!! Buhay pa ba nag-gupit sayo?!?!?!" hehehehe I'm sure we all want a good reaction or comment to everything we do but too bad that doesn't happen. If it does... well, it's either your dreaming or that person is cuckoo.
There is only one thing that is constant in this world of ours... and that is change... But I do hope it's for the better though...
A Dinner Date that's long overdue
It was the first time in a long time since my whole family went out for Dinner. We finally did last Sunday. My Papa, Mama, Kuya, me and my little sister had Dinner at Superbowl in Glorietta 4. We haven't done this for a long time now. We used to go out when my siblings and I were still studying, our parents did this just to catch up on our stories and updates in our lives. But after some time, especially when we started working, the "Family Dinner Dates" didn't happen anymore. We as a family started to live our own lives. Eventhough we all still live in the same house, we had independent lives. When we're all at home, we go to our own rooms and just stay there until we have to go somewhere. That's how it's been for quite some time now.
Finally, my Mom noticed that the whole family has been growing apart. We were like strangers in our home. This is why my Mom finally set a date for the whole family to have Dinner someplace. For me, I didn't think it that way, or I didn't even notice it was starting to be like that. But Mom knows best for the family and after that Dinner, she's right after all, always has been, always will be. It was a different feeling seeing all of us together. My Mama and Papa were so happy seeing all of us together and making kwento to them on the plans we have in life.
So from now on, our parents set a date with us siblings every first Sunday of the Month and be together as a family. This is also a good way of knowing the good restaurants that serve good food. hehehe
